bad habit

somebody tell me what it feel like, i never touched it i never had it, i saw it once but i couldn't grab it, took my heart then he fuckin stabbed it, somebody tell me what it feel like, i swear to god i thought it was real, the worst pain is falling in love with a nigga that dont even feel the way that you feel, i was like a feign he was like a drug, we was having sex threw away the glove, to be honest when push come to shove, i think i found everything except love, the last nigga said he die for me, the last nigga said he ride for me, the last nigga was the last nigga that i ever trusted cause guess what he lied to me, and last time was the last time thats what i said last time, until i call that nigga phone at 2 a.m.and told him i wanna do it for the last time, and of course he was with it, so yea you know i payed a visit, and on my neck i felt his kisses, fuck it it ain't nobody else business, i dont know that to feel its, taking over my mind taking over my body, dont know how to heal it, cause i keep on coming back, its like i gotta bad habit, yea yea. its like i gotta bad habit, is it really that easy for you to leave me, have me fall for you then deceive me, lied to me like you need space, whole time you was in another bitch face, who was there, who was there for you, you couldn't breath i was air for you, when i needed you baby where was you, i created a monster now im scared of you, i love you but i hate you, i just wanted the perfect picture to paint you, but you ain't see it how i see it, you knew what you was looking for but didn't know how to be it, i feel like a fucking idiot oblivious that you was so insidious, this love thing can get real hideous, but really is you just wasn't serious, i knew what i wanted from the start and you was curious, somebody tell me what it feel like, he told me he will keep it 100, i heard love is blind though, i guess thats why i ain't see this coming, you the man you got action, say i be tweakin i be spazzin, is it love or satisfaction, was it real from the start, or should i be asking, i dont know that to feel its, taking over my mind taking over my body, dont know how to heal it, cause i keep on coming back, its like i gotta bad habit, yea yea. its like i gotta bad habit