a faulty foundation

this plan is only surface, and i do not deserve this. i'm wondering if i'll withstand, to stand alone and stand to scream to the world: i'm through and now i've come to mend, these wounds that were gored by you through all of them, it's too sad that i've got to mediate these faulty sides of you, and i'm wondering whatever did i do, the only reason that i still remain to you, is i go on repeating the excuse, this plan is only surface, maybe i'm lost in purpose, i've stood alone too many days, and i'm waiting for my day to say to the world, come through with all those promise plans, those year are lost and you've forgotten them, it's too sad, what if this had not happened?, what if she hadn't gone?, what if this had not happened?, she never would have gone, well i wonder if the same, things could be any other way, still i don't deserve this, i've stood alone too long to say