watch me read you

watch me read you, the turning pages of an epic, dissected hallucinogenic, black coffee addict, life, ended lies, cold on that metal tray, wasting away, i watch him sneer at me, from beyond the grave, i hear him call for me, watch me read you, i get scared when it falls dark, the creeping shadows up my arm, the sneaking scarecrows, work their charm, but circumstantial, the way i blink when you get mad, feel disarmed when you get sad, but turn to run when we fall back, on old behaviors, when the flavor turns from sweet to sour, that's the hour that i seek, the heavy hearts, and tired retreats, with words of hatred, watch it seep through skin, like sap through bark, i cower in the dark, til your return, when will i learn?, we never wanted to be more than just a silhouette, breathing the smoke from others mouths and lying in the dirt, so make a promise but then later we can just forget, it's hard to let your breath out when you're used to holding it, she'll go, got out through the window, it's her, maybe it's a shadow, you never wanted to be more than just a silhouette, but when you cry the light reflects and i see you again, "the beautiful colors of the people's faces.", ".and the way they sat on top of those necks", watch me read you, like words ripped right off the page, another ghost, another day, of melancholy, uv rays, and heavy eyelids, you just decided not to care, compressed your fears, and cut your hair, lifted your shirt, to find there's nothing there, now read me: red wine, copper stained, with curly hair and crazy eyes, impulsive mouth, she loves the rain, but not the dark, you feel insane, the overpass is wet with blood, she turns to you to say, "hey. we can't exist", and in that moment, it's just bliss, it's like you've missed, a thousand years and as you kiss, it's like you drift, between here and there, between real and fake, as i hold my breath i can't see your face, watch me read me, read you, read them, read us: everyone's a burning book on, trust and lust and love and what we are and what we're made of, we never wanted to be more than just a silhouette, breathing the smoke from others mouths and lying in the dirt, so make a promise but then later we can just forget, it's hard to let your breath out when your used to holding it, she'll go, got out through the window, it's her, maybe it's a shadow, you never wanted to be more than just a silhouette, but when you cry the light reflects and i see you again, so don't just see me, oh surround me, it's getting harder, babe, to focus on just one thing, it's enigmatic, truly astounding, the way we stand together, but we are still drifting, you are so absent, but you consume me, and when the sun goes down the night it wraps around me, you try to stand still, i can't help moving, you're like the moon that draws the tide that rushes through me, we never wanted to be more than just a silhouette, breathing the smoke from others mouths and lying in the dirt, so make a promise but then later we can just forget, it's hard to let your breath out when your used to holding it, she'll go, got out through the window, it's her, maybe it's a shadow, you never wanted to be more than just a silhouette, but when you cry the light reflects and i see you again, i see you again, i watch you read me, the burning pages of my life, reduced to ash and overnight, i find my body, is not mine