how does it feel?

how does it feel to have love to have lost, and i know how to feel anymore, and how many times do you have to be cruel to be kind, and show feelings the door, well isn't it strange how much you can change in a year or a minute or more, how can it go from so good to so bad and my soul is now squished on the floor, how does it feel on your own and you can't even deal with yourself, how can i move when the ground is so lose, and the sun wants to peel off my skin, and how can i laugh when my mouth is held back, and i'm struggling now just to grin, i hold myself up till i run out of luck, while the world carries on in a spin, and now it's so real and it's paying off well cos my feeling are letting me in, how does it feel on your own and you can't even deal with yourself, i've been asking the same old questions time and time again, i find that i don't want to live this life but i know that i'll have to pretend, cos everyone's hiding from the truth and they're just lying to themselves, how do you expect me to deal with this when i can't even deal with myself, how does it feel on your own and you can't even deal with yourself