pendulum days

seems i've been swinging back and forth, or running in one place, suspended to remain on course, while earth turns beneath my feet, still doing as i was told, went slow and steady, now the trail's gone cold, wait, stick to the plan, don't get discouraged, the weight will shift again, the carrot hangs, a little further out each day, with every single step i take, so hard to notice, what has changed, dominoes lined up, with too much space between, one falls, but the rest stay standing, no chain reaction, they don't connect, is this the way it's always been?, i'm too far gone to see, no i am not killing time, time is killing me, still doing as i was told, went slow and steady, now the trail's gone cold, wait, stick to the plan, don't get discouraged, the weight will shift again, the illusion of progress is all i see, inching forward with my fingernail length, and yet i find myself stuck at the beginning, chasing my own tail again, the light at the end of the tunnel barely grows, how long is too long?, can i move on?, don't make the same mistake as me, i can't move on, it's been too long