sick and disgusting

remember the time you said, "son, it'll be alright."?, remember the time you said, "son, it will be just fine."?, well, i'm waiting for the day that my mind says it's had enough, and i pray that day comes soon so i can finally feel loved, i just wanna feel loved, i just wanna feel loved, remember the time i said, "god, i'm ready to die."?, remember the time i said, "god, just take my life."?, remember the time that i cried every single night, and every thought about myself was out of spite?, sick joke, sick joke, that's all i'll ever be to anyone, sick joke, sick joke, that's all you'll ever be to anyone, i'm nothing but sick and disgusting, i'm nothing but sick and disgusting, god, i don't know if i'll ever be ready to die, god, i'm too much of a coward to give you my life, and i know that i'm still gonna cry every single night, but if you want me i'm gonna stay here and fight 'til you say, "son, your heart is mine.", dad, i don't wanna be sick and disgusting, daddy, i don't wanna be sick and disgusting, dad, i don't wanna be sick and disgusting, dad, i don't wanna be sick and disgusting