baggage

i'm lookin' old today, in a very sort of jaded way, cynical and hard, weeds all over my yard, i can't remember the summer, it's all a blur, yeah, it's been pilin' high, it's been pilin' up so goddamn high, now i've got baggage, i'm probably tagged for life, my self-righteous eyes, wanna close the book, it's got nothing to do with the looks, can't keep it together, losing my grip, yeah, i've been sinking down, time to abandon ship, it's hard to swim with baggage, my friends are all strangers, they stopped calling weeks ago, but guilt's a heavy load, it's a very very heavy load, packed in my baggage