gods of rapture

i feel torn apart a vile misfit fallen, deep into affliction of my hollow mind, the sense of suffocation grows inside my lungs, when i wake into truth i'm back among the blind, the truth of lies disenchanting my eyes, how can i survive i can't stand being, alive.alive. gods of rapture enshrouding my eyes i try to hide, then slowly i die, my past laugh at me from the other side of negation, untying the lasting few cords of common sense, submerged into the flow the rapids of addiction, too weak to push it back a worm without defence, my flesh fading undressing the bones behold me naked, cadaver exposed this my abuse i can't take it no more, the fragile truth sneering at me with teeth pressed, like thrusting nails into my head all my life i regret