not proud

i'm not proud of what i did to you, not proud of what i did to you, you're worth more than what i meant to you, you don't need, you don't deserve to, think i feel it's a dub when it's an l, think i enjoyed all the love when you fell, if you wonder where it got me know it's hell, though it prolly don't help when nobody can tell, can't really pay without knowing the cost, just don't let your regrets be not giving your all, you were always better than the old me, can't let you go without tellin you he told me, and i gotta live with the choice, been listening to the part of your heart that i took, now i gotta give it a voice, i feel like i live in the void i created inside of you, i was the one you confided to, whoa, should be on side of you, said i would die for you, and i know you felt that lie to your soul, just so you know, she wasn't better at anything, you had that heavenly energy, no, it ain't fair, cuz if you had chose him to me, i would've prolly shown empathy, now it's your fault, you're too good, move the mark, where you stood, i wouldn't start, like you could, should've played my part, like you would, don't know how i thought i was worth it, creepin - what i got is perfect, living i guess i'm still learning, learning to the live with the burden, don't know how i thought i was worth it, creepin - what i got is perfect, living i guess i'm still learning, learning to the live with the burden, i'm not proud of what i did to you, not proud of what i did to you, you're worth more than what i meant to you, you don't need, you don't deserve to, think i feel it's a dub when it's an l, think i enjoyed all the love when you fell, if you wonder where it got me know it's hell, though it prolly don't help when nobody can tell, can't really pay without knowing the cost, just don't let your regrets be not giving your all, you were always better than the old me, can't let you go without tellin you he told me, no, i can't let you go, can't let you go, i've been blowin' on the smoke, blowin' on the smoke, and some girls been around, i've been fuckin' around plenty of them, now i don't fuck with many of them, now i don't really fuck with any of them now, and i'm not proud of what i did, told you time and time again, i'm not proud of none of this, no, i'm not too proud to call again, and i'm not tryin' to call it quits, at least i call it how it is, yea, blowin' of steam, i've been blowin' off a little bit a steam, doing your thing you've been out here doing your thing, i'ma be good, but not as good without my queen around, no, i'm not proud of what i did to you, not proud of what i did to you, you're worth more than what i meant to you, you don't need, you don't deserve to, think i feel it's a dub when it's an l, think i enjoyed all the love when you fell, if you wonder where it got me know it's hell, though it prolly don't help when nobody can tell, can't really pay without knowing the cost, just don't let your regrets be not giving your all, you were always better than the old me, can't let you go without tellin you he told me