on my own

this is all on me, cause i keep trying the same old thing, like there's no consequence, and everyone can see, that i've been doing my best this week, till i broke down again, cause you keep running but i'm so tired, of all the space between, you're upset from all the lies, that got away from me, since i can't seem to hold up my own heavy heart, just go on take it with you, i won't get too far, on my own, i haven't heard your voice in weeks, and i keep making excuses now, i'm sure you don't believe, the promise i keep, are few and far between, i've lost my mind again, why do i have no control of it?, dying for oxygen, i can't breathe in my lungs are paper thin, to me you're life support, my northern star that lights my darkest roads, if you leave and we're apart, just know that i can't make it on my own