big dumb rocket

i've never seen your breath before, but i'm disgusted by the thought of, waiting anymore, if i look up in your eyes, will you notice me or notice it or, fade into this accident, i don't want to find, the big dumb rocket on your mind, its mostly you & mostly me, and a tired gun that's not empty, i've never been this sad before, but i'm disgusted by my fingertips, and what they've done, if i look into your eyes, if it must be true you must believe, i've never held such violent things, i've never talked to god before tonight, but i'm disgusted by.