grow up

, i'm 24, been that young boy, to learn the game i had no choice, i put in work and i ain't learn to navigate life without my folk get'n annoyed, like crae and nate with them hard talks, rmg and my learned faults, 'cuz discipleship was that life on life, and they been here for them long walks, found bj with ground work, taught the youngin' that love life, how to network with them boulevards, tryna bring the peace to they thug life, my hard head made my life harder, so stubborn full of that pride, me tryna prove what i ain't have to prove was just affirmation i ain't find, 'crae got me, derek got me, doc and at, nate got me, bj and i never forget just how terrence g and phil jackson got me they dug deep in my trenches, put scripture down in my senses, i done felt the heat from my brothers swear i be sweatin' sittin' in they kitchen cause i be trippen', hey yo, we put in light, night and day, they won't love us, til we runaway, you can go anywhere you wanna go, does it ever get better?, lord only knows, i'm packing my bags, and i land on the road, and i'm being told, you can go anywhere you wanna go, so hard headed but i wised up, taught to shut up and just listen, nate taught me to just act dumb, watch they gone give you that wisdom, who gone try to teach know-it-all's, talking bout how you get it, shut up, how to heck you gone tell a man who done seen it all and been in it, so they grab my collar, rip the shirt, aye tell that boy you gone get this work, wisdom come it ain't everyday a young man a get what they learned first, and they fought to make a man from a boy, i was married to that adolescence then filed out for divorce, of course, with my heart that a love these people, sincerely i love these people, but i can get a lil' sick and tired of tryna be they perfect model knowing me and god ain't equals, i done lost my life to this, yea, i gave up my right for this, yea, and that life on life done gave me that real deal to live right for him yea, so don't be thinking i made it now, like i'm living all gravy, naw, bro i can't stress how much this life don drove me crazy now, i done put my faith up on display so some gone hate my message, me tryna shepherd and lead these people got me over stressing, hey yo, we put in light, night and day, they won't love us, til we runaway, you can go anywhere you wanna go, does it ever get better?, lord only knows, i'm packing my bags, and i fill them clothes, and i'm being told, you can go anywhere you wanna go, take my flaws take my flaws, let me draw from my ink, let me from my bars, vomit star in the sink, but they say. you don't know better no no, until we runaway.