live it out

on the day we were supposed to leave, you changed your mind at the station, you had a nice apartment, there was a good bar downstairs, your old friend worked there, i'll go anyway, i'll go anyway, they won't refund the ticket, it's a good story, but i don't want to live it alone, crash to take a chance, i wanna live it out, look at you, i know i'm already dead, no concrete adversity, only traps of our own actions, how we wanted it to be, now i'm never gonna see you again, you turned off, vertabrae by vertebrae, roll your way out of a coma, look up, the nurse is smiling, what luck, the nurse is me, your old body is dead, your body's dead, you're a word instead, in my sleep i repeat it, it's a good story, but i don't want to live it alone, crash to take a chance, we were gonna live it out, look at you, you're already dead, how will you remember me, digging ditches out of boredom, said you would never leave, now you're never gonna be here again, you checked out, dum dum dum dum dum, sha la la la la, dum dum dum dum dum