state of mind

my mind is explosive like i planted c4, i'm surrounded by darkness like bats in a layer, mentally locking me inside of a prison, but my vision getting brighter cause i made it appear, they say that time heals everything it's barely true, cause if it was why am i still hurting from you?, my words are ammunition and i'm ready to shoot, made a lot of fucking moves but still more to prove, just be yourself man forget the critics, possess a hype plan and mind your business, a fight to the finish til my soul diminish, already in the game i was in the scrimmage, choices i have made got me so depressed, i was drinking out the bottle til my eyes turn red, smoke another swisha tryna ease my mental, it got me tripping paranoia like i seen the feds, getting high all day cause the world is low, procrastinate on the daily ain't the way to go, an apocalypse approaching i can sense it though, social media's a tool that will drain you slow, the good die young and the rich get richer, rapper's out here ghost writing claiming they spitters, you can tell me i should stop but i ain't no quitter, colder than a winter night cause my past so bitter, i'll be feeling like a plane on the runway, about to take off celebrate like it's my birthday, when this album drops you should buy it like it's payday, causing mayday i'ma do this shit my way, hater's gonna watch my every move like a steak out, speaking to the people like i'm martin luther king now, if you want a feature you can hit me on a pay pal, always bring the flame like i'm chilling at a campground, damn, everybody wanna come around like they know me, but you don't know a thing about me you are such a phony, you can say what you want but won't bring me down, i've been hurt so many times i can't feel it now, i hope you understand my state of mind, spotlight's on me and i know that it's my time to shine, i've been out here on the grind working overtime, and i ain't stopping til i get it that's my state of mind, karma come around for the one's who deserve, well i had my fair share i've been pushed to the limit, they talk about your business but it's none of their concern, give a fuck about a hater it's survival of the fittest, these fake's in disguise wanna act like my homie, now they see me making moves got no time for a phony, where the fuck were ya'll when i was down and nobody, when the weather wasn't sunny and i had no money, had enough of fake friends and a dirty whore, a whole world out there that i'm trying to explore, opportunity is knocking better answer the door, if you ain't doing what you love only you to blame for, i sit tight and i crunch rhymes, a few beer just to get me through the tough times, i've been m.i.a. and i relapsed, but i'm sobered up now and i'm on track, i'm a sociopath like norman bates, i'll cut you up like a surgeon while you wide awake, in the end we all doomed you cannot escape, and don't run from your problems they will not erase, embrace to change but don't trust nobody, running deep as an incision while i'm sipping on a 40, bruce lee with the nun chucks doper than a drug bust, sticking to my motive i'ma be somebody, they'd be watching me like the police on the block, these new gen rapper's are like sheep by the flock, my music therapeutic literally it's all i got, and i ain't never stopping til i reach the fucking top, i play my moves careful like a game of chess, no brakes full throttle can't slow down now, my rhyme flow sharper than a bayonet, when i hit that stage spark a whole damn crowd, everybody wanna come around like they know me, but you don't know a thing about me you are such a phony, you can say what you want but won't bring me down, i've been hurt so many times i can't feel it now, i hope you understand my state of mind, spotlight's on me and i know that it's my time to shine, i've been out here on the grind working overtime, and i ain't stopping til i get it that's my state of mind, energy's a monster my power is limitless, forever i'll be ill you should know that i'm infamous, our world is an illusion filled with hatred and bitterness, got me torn apart like i fractured a ligament, your dreams are on the line better answer that call, cause any moment you could lose it be regretting it all, trying to find the strength to get back every time that i fall, gotta constantly remind myself that this is my fault, they tell you that they love you but i see right through the lies, i'ma keep on chasing pavement cause this roads where i reside, i'ma probably die this way bury me up in the sky, let my legacy live on i hope you get my state of mind, everybody wanna come around like they know me, but you don't know a thing about me you are such a phony, you can say what you want but won't bring me down, i've been hurt so many times i can't feel it now, i hope you understand my state of mind, spotlight's on me and i know that it's my time to shine, i've been out here on the grind working overtime, and i ain't stopping til i get it that's my state of mind