confessions of hatred

impossible to reason with the thoughts in mind, to direct to forget about my pastimes, i assure you of one thing, this is something you'll never forget, in time i'm sure you'll understand, that the sound of the crack, the slap of my hand was only intended for one thing, the one thing i never had, palms sweaty - thoughts dry, hand fed by a broken mind, hands shak'n - don't cry it'll all be over, and then you'll have the chance to see the hole inside, the painted picture of a wounded mind, i can never escape this, how were you the last to know, now you're the next in line to see, all that i've become, responsible for bringing out my darkest side, i tried to hide what i feel but it's my time, to inflict all the damage, some indescribable pain, heart beating, last cry, anticipating what i have in mind, lick my lips an approach you, how were you the last to know, now you're the next in line to see, all that i've become, one day i'll become whole again, till then i'll just remember, i thought you understood being misunderstood, how wrong was i to think you ever would?, one day i'll become whole again, whole again, i never thought you'd be the last to know, you will be the next in line to see, all that i've become, victim till your last breath, all the hope is gone,