smothered

the black and cold reminds me, of all the distance we have crossed, and if your darkness blinds me, i could never be more lost, but i'm not the one who seeks your protection, i'm not the one to share the disguise, and i'm not the one who reeks of rejection, i'm not the one to tear the same way twice, you push from the inside, smothered, you push from the inside out, smothered, have all your walls surround me, they're closing in they block my sight, the violence around me, found me when i could not fight, but i'm not the one to take your direction, i'm not the one who wears the disguise, and i'm not the one to share your reflection, i'm not the one you break the same way twice, i will never win, i will never win with you, i read you, i fear you round up no more than you know, i hate you, i still do everytime you let me go