suffer

i woke up today, after a blurry night. a never ending fight, and i saw you. but you weren't there, you weren't there!, and i've failed again. i got lost, in black, and cycle, an eternity. flooded, drought, with emptiness. you weren't there. i exist, without color. i wander, without faith. you're gone, and so am i. heavy, heavy. i put it down. it's empty, and so am i. lower, lower. hope, into hate. sadness, into hate. love, into hate. hate, into insanity. insanity, into spite. spite!, i woke up today, with a hole in my fucking chest!, i will try, i will try, and if i fail, fail once a fucking again, it will be, just like me, just like me. suffer, just like me. yeah, suffer. yeah, suffer. suffer!, spite!