sick of my shadow

i want to go for a long walk, i might need some company, someone i can relate to, someone other than me, i'm tired of these conversations, i keep on having in my head, but it's a long way home once you've made your bed, i'm sick of my shadow, want to shed my skin, sick of my shadow, what a shape i'm in, sick of myself, and everything i do, i'm sick of my shadow since i lost you, oh yeah so i got some problems, what else is new?, i spend too much time in my black and white world, trying to paint it blue, but we cant all be like you, dear, with your million dollar smile, some of us don't bounce back, we stay down for a while, all i need is that one shot, one big lucky break, i can finally wipe the slate clean, pay for all my mistakes, just let me roll 'em hot tonight jesus, i swear i'll walk away, lose this chip on my shoulder, keep my demons at bay,