standstill

i guess it's my fault this time, i used to think that it was so, important to be right, so i didn't call you, say i'm sorry, you wouldn't have answered, the damage was done, i should give you up, but i've hit a standstill, a brick wall, i won't admit it, but i just keep collecting regrets, how did i make such a mess of this, i wasn't ready, to love you, can't say it now, though i want to, i have nothing but my pride, but it doesn't keep me warm at night, i heard you met someone else, i ask our friends about you, 'cause i just can't help myself, i push down the feeling, that i'm breaking, and smile when they tell me, it's not going to last, i just want you back, are you lonely?, i get lonely too, do you miss me?, lately i've been missing you, are you happy, like i'm trying to be?, have you moved on?, or do you ever think of me?