this time

i want to hurt you and don't know why, though i know it's not like me, i can not help it, though i try to keep you away, all this time i thought i knew who you were, but this time all your words were just lies for demise, and your thoughts were found unpure, so when push comes to shove i found reasons, to not work it out or relate, and get off on the fear that i get when your near, and the problems that i create, this time, i think you'll finally see, this time, i will not break, this time, i'm smart enough to know, there is only so much i'll take, this time, i'm gonna make change, this time, you're in my way, this time, i will not play the same head trip on me game that you play, unresolved situations esculate, inside something brings me to push, to find out what you can take, when we run out of love and change seasons, with our lives together at stake, i'm aware of tears that i give when your near, and the confusion that i make, i want to hurt you and dont know why, i can not help it, though i try to keep you away, i want to hurt you, i don't want to lie