shame

one, two, three, four, can't find a reason to get out of bed, but you're lying next to me, it's not your fault, one, two, earthquake, all of the people inside of my brain, are divided, and fighting, say, "get over it", and shame is an ocean, i swim across, across, across, across, you can't break me, if i've already done it myself, you can't shame me, if i've already done it myself, you can't drown me, if i've already done it myself, but i wanna come alive, i wanna come alive, i wanna come alive, i wanna come alive, one, two, dark room, does anybody know the way out of here?, i planted roses in the backyard, don't remember why, one, two, forget, the language of memory, the nouns, the hurt, i'm not a, person, a place, or a thing, and shame is an ocean, i swim across, across, across, across, you can't break me, if i've already done it myself, you can't shame me, if i've already done it myself, you can't drown me, if i've already done it myself, but i wanna come alive, i wanna come alive, i wanna come alive, i wanna come alive, if i hate myself enough, i can call it kindness, if i hate myself enough, i can call it kindness, you can't break me, if i've already done it myself, you can't shame me, if i've already done it myself, you can't drown me, if i've already done it myself, but i wanna come alive, i wanna come alive, i wanna come alive, i wanna come alive