interlude

my most considered, like, "successful" moment of my life was the worst-the most depressed i've ever been. literally feeling like i'd probably be happier if i was just dead. i got a number one on billboard, my song is massive right now, like i may never have a song this big again, my tour, i think every date sold out except one date. so i literally had everything that i had always dreamed of happening, and i felt-i didn't feel happy at all. and so i think what happened was i spiraled really bad, 'cause i was like, "i'm here, and if this is it, there's gotta be more for me, 'cause if this is it, like, it's not gonna work."