holidays

this always happens to me just when i feel happy. they go and turn on me again. the same thing every time, i go out on a line. everyone else turns out fine. holidays are all the same. always have myself to blame. don't want to feel this way again. when it's a day of days, i go into a craze. my head and body feel malaise. holidays are all the same. always have myself to blame. don't want to feel this way again.