self made

i will always be an individual, for every second i was failing to be fitting in my school, and if i'm here then it's something i cannot do, i just got the wrong people to listen to, 'cause i've been invincible ever since i was told that being different is a gift i hold, been driven ever since my initial video tryna get into shows on my tippy toes, but i'm a little bit taller now, watch what's hurtin' me, drop the urgency, not concerned with the common courtesy, i'll deserve defeat, never listen to anyone who say they be understandin' me, 'cause i'm still learnin' me, this is constant work for me, i'll put a fire under mass, the thermometers could not observe or monitor the heat, hardest worker when y'all refer to me, over all of the years my team has gotten smaller but i'm not too surprised, no one keep up with how i work, but it's ok, i ain't often to rely, i could ask you all these questions like "how are you gonna stop my crew and i?", but i'd rather have you question yourself so i can sit here and watch your suicide, i ain't gotta kill 'em and kill 'em and stuff, but if they need to be killed i'll be killin' for a killin' funny, nobody really wanna be givin' me compliments assumin' that it's gettin' to my head, but that is never how i'm feelin', and when i be comin' around everyone happy as shit, but i never forget anyone who would laugh at this kid, i hold my success, spread your tongue everytime you were asked about this shit, but i gotta remember, i go up, i go down, but right now i'm better, see my mom proud of me, my dad proud of me, my grandma proud of me, grandpa you'd be too, no talkin' 'bout success, i have work for this, 'cause i wanna be strong just like you, just like you, i'll never give up because you never let it, i still feel your hand when we watch me on tv, i think about you everytime that i'm stressin', i miss you, and we all do, i wonder what you would say to me watchin' all of this, i could go back years, but i hold back tears when i'm jottin' all of this, yeah, i just hope to one day hold knowledge like you did, and if the cancer never got you i know you'd wanna be at every one of my shows watchin' me commit, see i'm prepped for this, as a perfectionist, i spend more time on one verse than an essay, just as important, recording it 'til the morning and surely every performance gotta be best take, mixing in the studio, the shit gotta sound beautiful so listen when you usually press play, self taught through music, learn myself through music, better myself through music, i'm self made, better myself through music, analyse myself, keep what i like, lose what i don't everytime i do this, and as i write what helps me make it better, as i try to forget what forces me to remember, what's making me invincible everyday, making sure i won't surrender these eraser shavings!, thank you