oedipus complex

curse myself down, decree of perfection. a slave to mirror ugly stares. a waste of scars rather to torment. evil equals needle, so i shut my eyes again. so confined, scratch at my eyes. bleed through my hands. yesterday was everyday, so i swallow this hell again. stare blindly. mock me. cast this shadow down and i'll keep running. i'll keep running away from you. inside black painted walls. leaves a stain of your sickness. never the knowledge of a vagrant. you fucking leech crawl out of my skin. i can't feel again. curse myself down, decree of perfection now. a slave to ugly stares. a waste of scars to torment. every moment, trapped inside, lost inside.