solitude

i'm sitting here alone in darkness, waiting to be free, lonely and forlorn i'm crying, i long for my time to come, death means just life, please let me die in solitude, hate is my only friend, pain is my father, torment is delight to me, death is my sanctuary, i seek it with pleasure, please let me die in solitude, receive my sacrifice, my lifeblood is exhausted, no one gave love and understanding, hear these words, vilifiers and pretenders, and please let me die in solitude, earth to earth, ashes to ashes, dust to dust