nowadays

i really wanna know, i really wanna know, really wanna know, wanna know, nowadays, nowadays, i wanna know why people judgin' me nowadays, and why they leave me out in the streets nowadays, and my family and friends my enemies nowadays, got so much anger locked inside of me nowadays, didn't give a f***, i started smokin', i started drinkin', was livin' it up, hurtin' my body, i wasn't thinkin', start ridin' my wave, hopped on my boat, i started sinkin', i started sinkin', man what was i thinkin', livin' out a plastic bag really made me sumn, no sympathy for the was who never gave me nothin', i was savin' for a whip, tryin' to slave me sumn, i've been workin' ot tryna save me sumn, my og, she ain't the same i can hear it when she talk, i can see it in her face and i can tell how she walk, it was sunny outside but we was livin' in the dark, it was all fun and games till them drugs took a spark, and my grandma, i thank god for that blessin', she was the perfect teacher, taught me all the right lessons, she transformed me from a boy to a man, from a prince to a king, from a palm to a hand, i wanna know why people judgin' me nowadays, and why they leave me out in the streets nowadays, and my family and friends my enemies nowadays, got so much anger locked inside of me nowadays, didn't give a f***, i started smokin', i started drinkin', was livin' it up, hurtin' my body, i wasn't thinkin', start ridin' my wave, hopped on my boat, i started sinkin', i started sinkin', man what was i thinkin', i'm like damn, look at my past situations, wasn't nothin' in the crib, my lifestyle was kind of vacant, if i want it, i'ma take it, i'm just really tryna make it, hearin' voices in my head, swear to god i can't fake it, what you know about, livin' in a house full of roaches, and they follow you to school, you hope nobody notice, out of your brothers you the oldest, so you gotta be the man, but you ain't have no guidance 'cause your family full of sin, oh wow, i tried to do it, but i couldn't hoe out, i went through it, but i wouldn't hoe out, i'm so down, i'm so up, i'm so left, i'm so right, i'm so shook, i'm so stuck, oh wow, i wanna know why people judgin' me nowadays, and why they leave me out in the streets nowadays, and my family and friends my enemies nowadays, got so much anger locked inside of me nowadays, didn't give a f***, i started smokin', i started drinkin', was livin' it up, hurtin' my body, i wasn't thinkin', start ridin' my wave, hopped on my boat, i started sinkin', i started sinkin', man what was i thinkin'