eyes wired shut

i've thrown away again the pills that make me, i've thrown away again the chance to want to change, i've thrown away again i'm standing all alone, i've thrown away again, eyes wired shut running through my brain, pulling back the skin it happens we're getting older, eyes wired shut running through my brain, it's all the same but in the end it keeps me coming, i've blown away again the fear of failing, i've blown away again the lies that make me sane, i've blown away the chance to make it right, i want to be i want to see i want to make it back to me, 'cause i just waste away the chance the time to face the change, to make myself to think that things are better