internal torment ii

as you stare into the depths of darkness, illusions of your mind pressured by horror, standing on a plain of desolation, the streams of frozen mist are shattered by the sun, travel through the uncaring skies, prepare for this defeat, once you're dead your eyes are shut forever, is it just the darkness that greets our pleas?, trapped in my skull, sanities locked inside, can't express my feelings, the pain i must hide, my body possessed by an unseen force, crippled for life, as i try to speak my voice. no physical pain you will feel, is this mental insanity real?, no future an obscenity, why was i chosen to suffer?, hoping i wake up and the curse has left my soul, attempts at speech are drowned in laughter, i writhe and grit my teeth in anger. why.?, not allowed to make decisions, if only i could tell them all i can think, in my afterlife, i'll rise again, destroy all the ones who laughed, kill them all. able to think, flex my limbs, talk and socialise, live my life, no future an obscenity, why was i chosen to suffer?, hoping i wake up and the curse has left my soul, attempts at speech are drowned in laughter, i writhe and grit my teeth in anger. why.?, not allowed to make decisions, if only i could tell them all i can think