waiting room

our family reunion, i'd rather be anywhere but here, it's like a pain you should ignore, but my uncle's here to open the door and i don't like him, this family reunion, i felt so uncomfortable, i left, they all decided to stay, so it's just me and my mistakes, and i'd like to know that you smile when you're alone, and when you need time to yourself, remember me, i won't be anyone else, i'm just the boy you love, i'm just the boy, and my lover, my best friend, when i heard that you don't know why you're here, i fell face down, and became one with the ground, and my lover's best friend, no, he doesn't know what to suggest, he does everything for love, but when his "everything" just isn't enough, he'd like to know that you smile when you're alone, and when you need time to yourself, remember me, i won't be anyone else, i'm just the boy you love, the boy. you love, and if it looks like you don't love me then, that's alright and i would let you be content, i'm still your friend, no revenge and no regrets, no regrets, no regrets, and if it looks like god might judge me, then i don't even wanna stay another day, cause if he's the one, then who am i?, he calls the shots, and he always decides, what's the point in living life, living life. when it's all for him. all for him