it's been a while

and it's been awhile, since i could hold my head up high, and it's been awhile, since i first saw you, and it's been awhile, since i could stand on my own two feet again, and it's been awhile, since i could call you, and everything i can't remember, as fucked up as it all may seem, the consequences that i've rendered, i've stretched myself beyond my means, and it's been awhile, since i could say that i wasn't addicted, and it's been awhile, since i could say i love myself as well, and it's been awhile, since i've gone and fucked things up just like i always do, and it's been awhile, but all that shit seems to disappear when i'm with you, and everything i can't remember, as fucked up as it all may seem, the consequences that i've rendered, i've gone and fucked things up again, why must i feel this way?, just make this go away, just one more peaceful day, and it's been awhile, since i could look at myself straight, and it's been awhile, since i said i'm sorry, and it's been awhile, since i've seen the way the candles light your face, and it's been awhile, but i can still remember just the way you taste, and everything i can't remember, as fucked up as it all may seem to be i know it's me, i cannot blame this on my father, he did the best he could for me, and it's been awhile, since i could hold my head up high, and it's been awhile, since i said i'm sorry