live for

mama told me you were getting sicker, daily she'd call me say it's my name, you were calling, i mean, i was your favorite, i was named after your father, you were the sweetest aunt, never had kids of your own but you made me your own, busy on the road, i couldn't make it back home, you couldn't make it that long, i'll never forgive my self, i think i love just the hurting fact, i think i love when you hurt me back, til we under the dirt, i keep you close, yeah, under my shirt, i keep you tucked to the side, i'm mr. jekyl, i got something to hide, i fancy love, but i get stuck off of pride, i hope you understand, i got a list of daily lovers, succumb to the beast or become it, live from the belly of it, just trying to survive, i'm searching for any others, let's get together make the whole world believe us, new world allegiance, fiends living our dreams out, nigga believe it, seen the world three times, nigga believe it, they out here selling peace signs, you niggas believed it, i don't, my behaviors unbecoming, my neighbors look at me funny like i should move out, nigga you get a new house, this shit ain't easy, multiple choices i had, turned into voices i have, no where to run, i'm moving forward and forging the path filling the loneliness path, nigga, this shit ain't easy, so spare me the front and the fake, you ain't put shit in the pot, fuck is you touching the plate?