far far away from my heart

well, the feelings coming on again, like a whisper that's knocking down a doorway, and everything it says i just believe, and i fear that i'm nothing and alone, so i pour another drink and take a hit, and i wonder where the smoke goes, and i'm feeling more and more like less and less, and it comes from so far down deep inside, but you can't get to it no matter what you try, and i'm far, far away from my heart, far, far away from my heart, it's just a voice that's bent on telling me i'm too good, and there really is a shortcut, and i've been through this so many nights before, that you'd think it would be easier by now, so i let the chemical reaction cloud over, the pain that keeps on hurting, as i slowly, but too slowly drift away, to a place where i know i don't have to think, god i hate myself all over so more i drink, and i'm far, far away from my heart, far, far away from my heart, and now i'm staring blankly at the tv, holding this guitar for some comfort, but it's so hard to write a simple song, and try to turn this feeling into melody, so i put it down get on my knees, close my eyes real tight now i'm praying, to anyone that maybe can hear me, tell me everything will be ok, and i don't think i can make another day, and i'm far, far away from my heart, far, far away from my heart