amen

you ever wake up one morning and think what is life?, knowing you living wrong but can't seem to make it right, thinking that you are strong but you lost a couple fights, see, life unexpected so it got you thinking twice, and you hate what you are but can't be who you want to, try live in the present but your past still haunts you, and you the same person they all once knew, but you "changed" because you started to see the truth, and that's real, can never have an opinion, never show how you feel, as soon as they know you different that's their cue to close the deal, cause a girl with a mind set deeper than sex appeal, is a threat even to men but i still keep it real, see most of you have opinions but none of you even know me, acting like you my friends but we ain't never been homies, bragging you got it bad like it be some kind of trophy, i been in and out of home since 15 shit is lonely, you would think i had it great don't ever judge a face, can never just a walk by the shoes they have laced, could never feel my struggle unless you really had a taste, but for now you could go ahead and hate, i started with a notebook, pen in my hand, writing poems just to escape the pain in advance, see rap gave me confidence i never knew i had, rap raised me no father figure, no dad, you rapping cause it's cool and you the trendy type, i rap because when i tried to commit it saved my life, those suicidal thoughts that were running through my mind, are no longer existent to the past i left behind, i rap about my life i'm not here to sugar coat it, but still half of you will question if i truly wrote it, blinded by the fact, that my skin is not black you would think it's all an act, whether ignorance is noted, but i continue, cause i was raised a fighter, try to dim my shine but my future seems brighter, i never had a father but i prayed to one that's higher, he don't judge me by mistakes, he don't look at my attire, but he loves me for what's real, and that's something you couldn't take, my bond between god you could never break, and see my faith that's something you could never shake, when i was crying in the gutter god was never late, so i could feel it in the air, can't see him but know he's there, only truly one who cared, no food but still fed, if it weren't for my father i'd be locked up or dead, so i dedicate this to my main man, amen