love don't live here

rule 1: watch your enemies cause they're watching you, rule 2: stay relentless in all that you do, rule 3: never ever bite the hand that feeds, love don't live here anymore, it's just me, i thought i made it through all the rain, through all the pain, tried to keep myself sane, remain the same and unscathed, i'm so lost, lost in myself, can't believe everything i've seen, and the words i've heard come outta my mouth, like damn. is this really who i am?, is this what i've become?, battered broken and undone?, i got this pain in my side, and my gut's not feeling right, i don't wanna admit it but i got thoughts of suicide, love don't live here anymore, now with my thoughts, blown out the back of my head, i'd paint this fucking bathroom red, just to kill what's in my head, but instead. i just bury my grief, bury my pain wrapped up in a white sheet, dig a hole for this bullshit, and just put it to sleep, covered with some dirt, and a grave stone that reads: 'you will break just like me, and you will not rest in peace, mother fucker you will suffer, for as long as i breathe', love don't live here anymore