voices

, the voices, in my head, are screaming louder, than my lips, all the words, i should have said, are slipping through my fingertips, and ever have done, seem so far away from this, the voices, in my head, are screaming louder, than my lips, louder than my lips, it's like i've been living a lie, it's beautiful huh, the way i can keep it inside, i'm settled in somebody's dream, seeing through one of his eyes, pieces of somebody's mind, pictures of thoughts, in a frame, i'm standing alone in the dark now, sad, and crippled ashamed, i loaded my pistol, and aimed, cock it, inflicted the pain, awoke in a sweat, feeling the death, creates an eclipse, in the brain, sometimes i think i'm insane, i hear the voice, when i'm sleep, whispers my name, and gave me the game, this what she saying to me, sometimes, i just wanna cry, we kiss in the rain, she speaking to me was a game, hymns in my ear, but this isn't clear, i listen, but nothing's explained, this is a lie, a feeling inside, i still often drift, when i drive, tears that left burns on my cheeks, emotionless mirrors, with eyes, staring me down, a view of the soul, a heart of a woman, is cold, my conscience is weak, she making me weak, the only love, i've ever known, has left me alone, and i'm dying inside, the only thing left, is my pride, the pain, that you hear in my rhyme, for happiness i never find, all in my mind, i think i finally failed at something, i honestly believe that, and looking at us from outside, you'd think we'd take better care of our hearts, i died when you did mentally, spiritually i'm numb i feel nothing,