am i getting through (part 1 & 2)

, i am strong, i am able, i spill milk on your table, then i crawl like a baby, just to see if you save me, i am sweet, i am ugly, i am mean if you love me, i'll try hard just to please you, when i say i don't need you, i dress up with a conscience, when i think you'll be watching, i say all the right things, i don't know what i mean, am i, am i, getting through, am i, am i, getting through, i am ignorant and rude, i am fashionably crude, and sometimes when it's quiet, i'm an angel in white, when i pose in the mirror, i want everyone near me, i am scared that i'm weird, i'm afraid i am queer, i am lovely and weak, i am foul when i speak, i am strange when i'm kind, i am frying my mind, i don't care, i don't care, jesus loves me i know, for my mom told me so, i'm a loser at love, i'm a flower in the mud, don't you hate it, when the money starts to running out, your esoteric rants, were made to twist and shout, i heard you moved, now you're hangin on the moulin rouge, don't you know no matter where you go, somebody's always watching you, that's what they say, that's what they say, when the pages fade the love you made, will seem one hundred light years away, that's what they say, that's what they say