open letter

wish i didn't care as much as i did, i've been this way since i was a little fucking kid, picking sunflowers in a field with my friend sid, he wasn't real but i used to wish he did exist, this isn't a sob story i'm just fucking sad, imaginary girlfriends are the only one's i've had, everything i've started has always ended bad, losing 10 pounds is never fucking rad, in love with someone from a different state, even if i was there we still wouldn't date, i'm not mad, i don't hate you, but truthfully i'd give the world just to fucking date you, days will always be the same, don't you say my name, 'cause you know i'll answer, always and forever, days will always be the same, don't you say my name, 'cause you know i'll answer, always and forever, i hope that girls like me for this one, so maybe then i wouldn't fuckin miss one, no one wants to come near me, all i fuckin want is just to feel better, just to feel better, all i want is just to feel better, all i want is just to feel better, if you really want her go get her, 'cause she'll go away forever