i'm sorry for everything i've ever done

i was a fool, young and insane. praying for death, away from my heart. i made a joke, nobody laughed. she got uncomfortable like it was sad. i didn't want anyone else to hear. then i told a lie, and everyone knew. she got uncomfortable like it was true. i don't know why you've ever had to leave, please, forgive me. please. i was a fool, numb and deranged. far from my home. away from my heart. i was a joke, nobody cared. she got uncomfortable, she was so scared. i didn't want anyone else to see. if this is true, i want to do, anything i can to stay here with you. i don't know why you've ever had to leave. please, forgive me. please, forgive me. please.