always

if only you were here to hold my head above bloody waters, we could make it through, you turned your back on me and now i do the same to you, you made me feel so hollow, how can the man that you looked up to turn around and say three words that hurt more than you'll ever know, you don't know what it feels like to be in my shoes, you turned your back on me as i stood there and fell to the floor, this time there's no reason for me to turn around and scream for help, but if only you were here to hold my head above all those things you said to tie me down, i'm looking for forgiveness for something that i didn't even do, how can you call yourself and idol, a person to trust?, how can i look so high up when you're always holding me down?