no backrub

lung cancer, no time, lots of stress, more fear, self pity, headache, lots of guilt, no sleep, these are the things i give myself, no pleasure, no time, don't need to feel fine, dirty kitchen, broken car, trying to breathe in, thru a scar, these are the things i give myself, loads of execution, loads of execution, loads of execution, these are the things i give myself, been programmed to, self destruct.