cold shoulders

what would you do if everything you've ever wanted, was the reason that you couldn't sleep?, what would you say if everything you've ever hated, slept in your bed, stealing the air that you breathe?, it's hard to feel like, heaven's close when, the devil lives next door, but now i'm moving on, i let you in to build me up, just to tear me down, i let you in to build me up, just to watch be drown, you paint that smile on your face, 'cause it's your favorite hiding place, but i'll find you, i'll always be the one you, fought to lose, was i too much for you?, i didn't need to hear it, you said it loud and clear when, you withdrew yourself from my life, i watched you do so much for others, but can the others say the same?, at least you have one another, you can both share in the blame, but now i'm moving on, i let you in to build me up, just to tear me down, i let you in to build me up, just to watch be drown, you paint that smile on your face, 'cause it's your favorite hiding place, but i'll find you, i'll always be the one you, fought to lose, if i hear you singing along, you'll be, you'll be admitting you're wrong, if there is one thing i know that is sad, it's i'm better than you'll ever have, fight it, deny it, you know that you're lying, when you say they're better than me, cause i need something more, than cold shoulders and closed doors, cause i mean so much more, than the drop in the bucket, that you fell in love with, it's hard to feel like, heaven's close when, i let you in to build me up, just to tear me down, i let you in to build me up, just to watch be drown, you paint that smile on your face, 'cause it's your favorite hiding place, but i'll find you, i'll always be the one you, fought to lose, i'll always be that piece you couldn't chew, i'll always be the one you fought to lose