a feast for me

well there's a party for me, the last thing i wanted from you, i close the door behind me and there you are, you seem relaxed and quiet, but under your shirt you sweat, and these balloons around make me feel so sad. well there's a feast for me, but it's a night so pale, feels like an empty room where we could kill with words, you wish you could make believe that i'm what you want me to be, but these balloons around make me feel so sad, i'm in your sweet, sweet, sweet embrace, and you're a thousand miles away, your arms a sweet, sweet, sweet embrace, and you're a thousand miles away. well there's a party for me, and you know that i didn't ask for it, i just stay in your game i'm just playing your game, so won't you tell me what to do, i can pretend you tell the truth, won't you tell me what to do, i can pretend you tell the truth, i'm in your sweet, sweet, sweet embrace, and you're a thousand miles away, your arms a sweet, sweet, sweet embrace, and you're a thousand miles away. why? why? why? why?, should i take the blame, where's my big mistake, should i feel happy for what i haven't done, should i take the blame, should i feel the pain, or should i feel regret for what i haven't done, why? why? why? why?, was this a feast for me or just a bad surprise?, should i have expected this? i just don't wanna know, and you've made up the rules so that you'll win this game, but you can't tell me what to do, 'cause i don't believe in you, what's left a sweet sweet sweet embrace, and you're a thousand miles away, your arms a sweet sweet sweet embrace, and you're a thousand miles away, why? why?, i'll never ask you why. why.