someone you'd admire

after all is said and done i feel the same, all that i hoped would change within me stayed, like a huddled moon-lit exile on the shore, warming his hands, a thousand years ago, i walk with others in me yearning to get out, claw at my skin and gnash their teeth and shout, one of them wants only to be someone you'd admire, one would as soon just throw you on the fire, after all is said and after all is done, god only knows which of them i'll become