wanted it that way

left all the flowers in the living room, shook every hand i didn't know, stacked all the cards i read to you when you get alone, i made your bed, hung your favorite dress, mailed all the letters that you saved, broke the news over every call that you couldn't make, never written down in a will, on a page, i do my best to try and keep you around this place, cause i know, you would've wanted it that way, your oldest boy gave his girl your ring, they set a wedding date in june, your daughter named her brown-eyed baby after you, i call my youngest brother once a day, and you would be so proud to know, he brings you yellow roses every time he's home, never written down in a will, on a page, we do our best to try and keep you around this place, cause we know, you would've wanted it that way, i found a letter in your dresser drawer, with my name and no address, waiting for me and a birthday card that you never sent, you spoke to me like you never have, the words you held back all this time, were the ones you could never say while you were alive, why did i have to hear you were proud of me this way?, i'm gonna carry this letter around so you're here everyday, cause i know, yes i know, you would've wanted it that way, wanted it that way, you