a thousand apologies

so afraid!, thoughts come my way, lose it all!, but it was nothing anyway, what's done is done!, and i know i'll be saved, in time you will, so move on!, god said he'd help me through, and you're all very proud, when there's nothing left to steal, and i feel, so real, it scares me. and have i ever asked for more?, betrayed!, my plans award me, it's never up to me!, i know that i'll break, how far kid?!, coz from here it looks like a long way down, i can't climb back up, that's keeping me from you, and you're all very proud, when there's nothing left to steal, and i feel, so real, it scares me. and have i ever asked for more?, was i that insecure?, can't you stick out your fears, can't you push them out some more, yeah, can't you stick out your fears, can't you push them out some more, yeah, i.know.it's.all.in there.but i.can't see. i can't see that far!, woooo!, yeah!, those who made up time, now what's it gonna be? argh!, something, something's wrong, something's wrong, something's very wrong! argh!, please.can.i.have.more.time?,if i see you again, i'll laugh right in your face.