again and again

i told myself i wouldn't come here again, thought i knew myself but i just can't forget what you said, i tried to hide it, couldn't fight it, oh again and again, i'm left with nothing, just give me something to help me understand, again and again, i tell myself again and again, need to be sure i can't pretend, i tell myself again and again, don't you see me, i need a memory, just believe me, i need a memory, i told myself we weren't one in the same, cause i told stories about us, now i don't know what to say, i replay you leaving, when i was bleeding, oh again and again, i miss what you told me, was that the old me, now i don't understand, again and again, i tell myself again and again, need to be sure i can't pretend, i tell myself again and again, don't you see me, i need a memory, just believe me, i need a memory, again and again i must be sure i can't pretend, oh again and again i must be sure i can't pretend, and i need room to breathe, i told myself you get what you need, but i needed you more than you know, again and again, i tell myself again and again, need to be sure i can't pretend, i tell myself again and again, again and again, i tell myself again and again, need to be sure i can't pretend, i tell myself again and again, i need a memory.