lights out

looking back in anger, looking back with joy and laughs, don't ask me all those questions, cause i don't have the answers now, i tried to hold back all my thoughts and all my dreams, just to make things better, i was using myself past my means. but all those days are gone, and i can't find the path that i should follow, i'm walking unknown land, mile after mile i search the way back to my mind, and i cannot believe how hard it is to find, when i'm down. i used to make things easy, i used to be a happy guy, but now things seem so different, that i can't even play the game, i got to try to find the way thru all this now, so what i need now, is someone to read the map cause i don't know how. i feel ashamed and i'm to blame, cause i tried to be, i tried to see things from my side, and i also bleed, i also need some space, it's time to close this case.