i always wanted it this way

as i found out that i, had a lot to learn, it turns out the tide, had to take its turn, the line we had drawn, wasn't straight enough, though timelines were burned, we rebuilt the trust, i always wanted it this way, i always hoped it'd be this way, i shielded my heart, to make sense of this, the time spent apart, that my conscience missed, my mind, wandered thoughtlessly, in that land, of uncertainty, i always wanted it this way, i always wanted it this way, i've stayed, at my station on the scene, and frayed, like the circuits in between, and played, as the part of a machine, and i found out that i, had my mind to learn