need to know

wake up with a weight upon my chest, you're fast asleep, i listen to your breath, can we still be great, is there enough time left, to make your proud and live without regret, my mind is plagued with things that i don't say, i suck it up and choose to start the day, cause that's the one thing, she never ever need to know, she never ever need to know, she never ever need to know, she never ever need to know, she never ever need to know, i'm scared to death that i might lose my health, fade away before the cards are dealt, one too many times i cross the line, will i lose myself to a damaged mind?, will i fuck it up and cause her pain, my father's son, i change my name, about to break the pressure just to run, i swallow it down, i won't show my crush, she never ever need to know, she never ever need to know, she never ever need to know, she never ever need to know, she never ever need to know, my fear, my pride, my double life, my darker side, all these little white lies, this is the place i hide, she never ever need to know, she never ever need to know, she never ever need to know, she never ever need to know, she never ever need to know, my fear, my pride, my double life, my darker side, she never ever need to know, she never ever need to know, she never ever need to know, she never ever need to know, she never ever need to know, my fear of trust, my wanderlust, i want to run